God stands at the ready even if you hate Him – Morry Deed
Mar 27, 2013 1757
By Morry Deed
God stands at the ready even if you hate Him. Hhhhmmmm. Some reading this will question. No matter where you are in your life God stands ready and waiting. He loved you so much he gave His Son as a ransom to bring you into His family before you ever loved Him.
John 3:16 “For God loved the world so much that He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life.”
When I was a teenager I decided at an early age (around 13) that I hated what my parents believed. They believed in God. They were very religious. So I decided to do the complete opposite. This to me, was to decide to follow Satan – to pursue evil – to become as bad as I could. I remember making this commitment on the demountable steps of Wonthaggi High School, at night, while hiding and having a few cigs.
I actively pursued this for another eight years. Around the age of nineteen, I was living in Cooranbong, NSW. I still worshipped Satan. I was never a part of an organised group, yet actively pursued demon possession and power .
One night I had a dream. In this dream I was listening to my death metal, blaspheming God and praising Satan. In my dream demon spirits came and flowed up my legs into my body. I felt them streaming through my chest. Hitting the back of my throat came a growl. At the time I thought it was the demons coming out. The growl was evil and full of power. I revelled in it and was fully into it as its power surged through me. Then I became acutely aware it was not stopping. Then I was conscious and thinking, yet the growl/scream went on in intensity and I began to panic (I was awake yet asleep trapped in what was happening). I tried to stop it. I desperately tried to wake up. Fear had me now. As I struggled one word formed in the back of my mind. It sat there for a second or two, then I grabbed it and spoke it out loud. JESUS! Bang – in a nano second I was sitting bolt upright in bed, heart thumping like I’d run a marathon, painfully aware of what had just happened. Then a familiar voice/thought came. “Don’t worry Morry. Go back to sleep. All is well.” Peace filled me (even Satan gives peace to those under his command), and I put the Jesus thing behind me…
54 The water rose over my head,
and I cried out, “This is the end!”
55 But I called on your name, Lord,
from deep within the pit.
56 You heard me when I cried, “Listen to my pleading!
Hear my cry for help!”
57 Yes, you came when I called;
you told me, “Do not fear.”
Even when I was far from God, He still came to me in my need. I don’t believe this was just a dream. Some will say it was and that’s fair enough. Yet, I know it wasn’t.
It was still a fair way off till I let Jesus in, yet He was following me, calling to me. He knew me and loved me before I loved Him. God’s grace and compassion is beyond our minds to comprehend. No-one knows what is happening behind the scenes. So take heart. For yourself in you struggles and people you know who have turned their backs on God – God is close – only a cry away.